shes always buzzing

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-05-24T10:46:00

2004-05-24T14:51:56Z

ahh i hate this weekend. it was going so good until sunday. my sophomore speech outline is due monday, so i finally get myslelf to start it and i open my backpack and my english folder wtih alll my research isnt in there. i freaked out and my mom broke her foot on saturday and can't drive cuase its her right one so i had to walk sooo long to the school and get my stuff. i get there and it's closed. usually i wouldn't care and i'd do it before homeroom but first theres no way i'd finish this in 45 minutes and second its worth 100pts in which i've already got a low C in this class. so i tell my mom this and i dont have to go to school today bahah, so i'm running up to the school later to grab all of that. and i'm really nervous to give this speech tomorrow.

p.s. im not using this journal anymore. new one _sknoof

new journalll

2004-05-17T20:44:47Z

yo, new journal _sknoof
its friends only, i'll add you all but im too lazy to do that all at once so comment if you want to be added<3333ciao

cause a week is a month, and an hour a day. when your reaching just pushes it farther away*

2004-05-12T23:06:10Z

getting nose done this weekend finally.
walked into bio lab, dead cats on the floor. hm, gross? all i could think of during dinner was them laying there while i ate my steak, lost my appetite.
completely cheated on every part of the math take home test, but what do they expect giving out part of the final as a take home? no way do i feel guilty though. i cant afford to fail, last year i got a 65 on the final. we're having a garage sale this weekend, not wanting to be there for that. i guess thats it for now, maybe ill post pictures later

nothing, pointless

2004-05-09T23:41:50Z

oh malrats (6:39:10 PM): of course???
oh malrats (6:39:13 PM): how would i know?!
oh malrats (6:39:23 PM): your mom might be the butchest mother fucker in brighton for all i know
Apex118 (6:39:34 PM): haven tyou met her??
oh malrats (6:39:39 PM): oh wait
oh malrats (6:39:40 PM): yeah

oh malrats (6:43:43 PM): online fights!
oh malrats (6:43:48 PM): YOURE SO OFF MY BUDDY LIST
oh malrats (6:43:52 PM): IM TOTALLY NOT IMING YOU BACK
oh malrats (6:43:57 PM): LOOK AT ME IM WARNING YOU
oh malrats (6:44:02 PM): warn warn mc warn thorn

- meet mallory

this weekend sucked and i'm stressing over the sophomore speech. bleh
everything bad is happening at once

i write everything down except whats on my mind

2004-04-15T21:12:10Z

ok so i cant complain, this is the first dull moment of break yet but im awful bored and theres nothing to do,
no ones online..
my package came today from urbn outfitters, i think i got myself too hyped up about it than i should of cuase it came and i only like one of things that i ordered haha. which means im gonna have to save up another 10 bucks to ship it back for an exchange. by the way we really need one of those stores here.
my fish have been acting really strange lately, so my algae eater died and i've been too grossed out to take it out of the tank so its just sitting there..i know, disgusting. everytime i look at it it looks smaller and smaller and im starting to think the fish are eating it or something but its not like i dont feed them enough.
my music is starting to get old after listening to it all for a week straight, i need soemthing new. hmm, i guess thats it. another pointless entry.
ps. can anyone help with a new layout

buttt its easterr.

2004-04-11T16:13:15Z

forget all the jesus crap. I DIDNT EVEN GET ANY CANDY.

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-04-09T16:27:00

2004-04-09T20:28:11Z

mreahh

2004-04-08T01:13:47Z

no update in awhile cuase i have nothing to say
...
still nothing to say,
i've decided to start going tanning contrary to what i said last week about girls who tan, only becuase i look like i am dying. school isnt going so well, ive gotten really lazy and i think i might have a D in social studies. Completely not looking forward to break, no one is going to be here to hang out.
I found twenty bucks today.
by the way i've promised myself to excercise every day of break.
ha, never going to happen

way too tired to try and figure this out on my own

2004-03-30T01:54:54Z

[i feel so blah]
question though, everytime i go and try to insert a picture into my entry i always end up with the box with the x inside of it or just the actual < img src="http://www.example.com/image.jpg" alt="title or description" /> thing. it never works.
so what am i really supposed to do?

sweet sweet summer

2004-03-28T23:07:02Z

this weekend was beyond amazing
and i know i say that about every weekend
but this one...
the weather
completely remeniscent of summer
we opened up the porch and even got a porable dvd player for out there
so i sat and wasted my time sitting in the sun NOT doing homework
i walked down the street with pants and a t-shirt and it felt normal
i miss summer ,so then i started thinking about it and
i planned out the rest of my life, or well....atleast til college ends
so after i half ass my way through highschoool and dont get the grades i am capable of
i move to san louis obispo, california and have my one year residency
then pick some random college, study radiology for 8 bizillion years
and thats where i stop
but the point is that i'm moving to somehwere where its like how it was today everyday. cause i can't deal with the gloomy weather anymore, it just brings everything down.

MorningView211 (5:53:15 PM): hahaha right when theres a guy who runs around in a speedo
Apex11 8 (5:53:19 PM): HAHAH
Apex11 8 (5:53:27 PM): taht is so our neighborhood
MorningView211 (5:53:31 PM): i know
MorningView211 (5:53:34 PM): black speedo
Apex11 8 (5:53:40 PM): oh he got a new one!
MorningView211 (5:53:44 PM): realy
Apex11 8 (5:53:45 PM): its like tie dye...
Apex11 8 (5:53:46 PM): greenish

yes, this is where i grew up.

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-03-22T20:22:00

2004-03-23T01:32:18Z

this weekend was soso good. [even without meredith] and without quinns show i still managed to visit with long lost hanifa and dani. let me tell you those girls are..different. it's always chaos.

but nevermind about that...i feel that lately i keep silencing myself.i tend to re-think almost everything before i say it at least once, stopping myself-most of the time, from saying anything at all. Half the thingsi want to say, i stifle. I stare at the ground and let the words play out in my head, as if it weren't my place. adn i feel like im going to reach the point where i feel like i shouldn't say anything at all, This is compltely unlike me.

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-03-17T21:41:00

2004-03-18T02:42:20Z

but for real, we all need to loosen up a little. people are so crazy these days.

if this week had a theme, the theme would be "sara doesnt sleep".

ah. c'est la vie.

ohh danny, danny wegmans that is

2004-03-16T03:23:18Z

so spontaneously today after my dentist appointment (oh man i have three cavities hahahah, i dont even like candy??!) my mom and i went into wegmans and i filled out an application. ah it felt so good and im incredibly excited to start working, i think partly cuase ill feel like an adult i guess; which i never knew i was excited about growing up until now. I know its not the greatest job, nothing special probably just cashier or something, this sounds stupid but..broadening my horizons and like working with people- I think it'll be good for me. Oh but i know they'll call me at home when im right in the middle of something and catch me totally off guard and ill be so unprepared to talk to them at that moment but i think i did a good job with the application, it felt so adult and like wrong for me to fill it out. I picked one up for meredith too but im pretty sure if we ended up working together, like same hours and stuff which is pretty unlikely that one of us would get fired haha. Its worth a try i guess.
And i talked to Mr. Curtis today and suprisingly he was completely sweet and caring about the whole 'situation', infact i didnt even have to ask him to talk- he was the one who initiated, weird i guess but i feel better about it.

time to go read great expectations, you know those 100 pages taht mr quinlisk expects us to read over the weekend.

against me of course

2004-03-12T01:16:39Z

there were no cameras brought for pictures to hold all the small details. we left them all behind. there was a place for and there was a time for and now we arrive and leave again, there is no point in a keepsake when you run from collections. i know one day there will be a book or a song line to remind me how much it meant to be hungry, exhausted, and alone. destination is a point, destination is a purpose, desperation is a reason to live...and this makes a heart beat. this could be any day of any year. this could be any stage in any city. all that matters is we are moving on. the roadside graveyards pass and we escape repeating. the construction of a nation building up and the destruction of a nation tearing down to build again. trailing taillights like the ghosts of the past en route to arrival. we are never going home.*

no freakingakgnging way

2004-03-10T23:46:17Z

and i got cut
FIRST OFF...
i have been playing since middle school, ive known mr curtis since i came into this district and 4 seventh graders and three eigth graders made it over me. And I woudlnt be posting this and telling you all that i got cut if i wasnt confident in my lacrosse skills...so first point i made to the coach when he called me out into the hallway : the seventh and eigth graders may have more skill then me,but they can be cut, he CAN afford to lose and they can be put on modified, me; i just have no where to go now.
second, becuase i was on the team last year and i am in tenth grade i do have seniority over all of them, a definte adavantage. but becuase mr curtis is so fucking concerned with his lacrosse program and getting the little kids to have advanced skills earlier so they will be the next melissa hill is a little rediculous to cut an experienced tenth grader over. i mean some of the 7th graders arent even 13 yet! furthermore coach coles said to me that i have improved immensely but my skill level is not up to everyone elses, ...uhh WHAT, and DUH becuase maybe i would have fairly decent skills if curtis didnt pick his favorite adn invite people to winter league and tournaments to improve

so i'm just sitting here, wondering waht my other options are
oh but i am having a little talk with mr curtis tomorrow, of course i know i cant change the decision but i think its necescarry to point all of this out to him in person

ahhalksdjflj

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-03-05T15:06:00

2004-03-05T20:20:11Z

good weather makes everything so much better

meh

2004-03-03T00:39:54Z

this week so far has been in every way a dissapointment

although i am incredibly excited for the concert tomorrow

and i feel like things are about to take a drastic change, something new is going to come along

p.s. im getting my nose periced which im completely open to opinion about....

[it wont be very noticeable though, just a stud that will be flat to my nose...trying not to make it look..uh.trashy?-for lack of a better word]

life is not to fear-life is to enjoy

2004-02-26T22:24:31Z

today wasnt bad, infact im glad toady happened, im glad mal happened

i realized i need to stop analyzing things too much in depth, simple little things that are said to me i take them way farther then they're meant to go, im sick of questioning people and things , im just going to let them be. i get so caught up in all of these things that normal people can just like deflect and not let it get to them

thats over

anyways the weekend needs to hurry up and get here

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-02-19T00:58:00

2004-02-19T06:01:03Z

break kind of sucks

but maybe merewold this weekend

and does anyone else hate the ramour and flanagan commercials, ITRS BEEN THE SAME ONE FOR LIKE 2 YEARS, and its like....one day only sale, so hurry in. but no, its eben gion on for like 2 years

alsdkjfalsf;j such agida

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-02-07T23:46:00

2004-02-08T04:48:23Z

What I used to be able to pass off as a bad freaking weekend could now potentially turn into a bad life.
i need summer

P.S.i miss you tuck like amber waves of grain

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-02-07T19:38:00

2004-02-08T00:40:56Z

bahah
err okay so i messed up my journal bad with the backrounds and stuff and i dont know how to change it back
help por favor

oh man, longgg survey but distracted me from Macbeth =]

2004-01-19T03:10:23Z

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basics
Name::	Sara Elizabeth Coyne
Nickname::	Kerri
Location::	Rotchester
Gender::	feem
Birthplace::	not heeyah
Birthstone::	ruby
Birthday::	July 19th
Sign::	Cancerr
Righty or Lefty::	Righty
Screenname::	Apex118
your looks
Height::	5'5
Weight::	130 :-[
Shoe size::	TEN
Hair Color::	strawberry blonde
Hair Length::	shoulderss
Eye Color::	griiiin
Size::	ha weird but 8
Glasses::	sometimes
Braces::	nope,nevaa
Piercings::	ears
Tattoos::	never ever ever ever ever
fashion
Where do you shop::	i dunno, H+M, americ eag
What do you usually wear::	jeans and a top, casual
What kind of shoes do you wear::	sauconys
Do you wear a watch::	not in awhile
Color you never wear::	brown, yellooo
Color you wear at least once a week::	blue
Something you wear everyday::	hmm...i guess maybe my ring?
Do you wear make up everyday::	not usually
Make up essential::	uh the only makeup i wear. called almost makeup...so is it really makeup?
Most cherished piece of clothing::	green 80s sweatshirtt
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing::	walmart
Do you wear belts::	uh huh
Do you wear hats::	not as much as i used to
How many pairs of shoes do you have::	ohgod,lemme go count, cuase i have no liefff....ohman,36 i need to clean those bebehs out soon
music
Favorite kind of music::	i dunno the category but mostly like hootie adn the blowfish, blues traveler, phish
Least Favorite::	rap, country
How many CD's do you have::	prob like 30 im all about the mp3 noww
Last CD you bought::	blues traveler
Whats in your CD player right now::	blues traveler
Do you download music::	but, of course
Favorites
Color::	blonde
Number::	7
Season::	SUMMER
Ice cream::	hmm, tie: chocolate, mint choc chip
Website::	allthelyrics.com hehe
Quote::	ehh je ne sais pas
Store::	Urban Outfitters, we need one heree
Band::	Phish
Singer::	Trey Anastasio
Rapper::	OH GOD, gross
Group::	Phish-isnt that the same as fav. Band?
Song::	old man and me -hootie & zeee blowwwwfish
Movie::	My Cousin Vinny
Actor::	Jack Nicholson
Actress::	i guess Reese Witherspoon
Kind of movies::	comedy, thats all
Place to be::	San Louis Obispo, or nantucket
Time of day::	10am
Clothing Brand::	dont care
Animal::	dogg
Food::	ill give you a category...italiano
Holiday::	christmas
Shape::	rectangle
Restaraunt::	Hicks and McCARTHYS
Fast food place::	i dunno, wendys?
Boy's name::	Tuck
Girl's name::	Samara
Word::	cant think of what i say all the time..?
Month::	july
Candy::	GUM
love and relationships
Sexual Preference::	wait..waht? do you mean like boy or girl? boy
Boyfriend or Girlfriend::	boy
Crush::	uh gay, not telling yous
Do you believe in love at first sight::	never thought about it
What do you look for in a guy/girl::	sense of humor really
Best physical feature::	eyes i suppose
Best hair color::	blonde
Best eye color::	blue..but its gotta be bright blue. same with green, yes, picky
randoms
Do you paint your nails::	no,
What color is your tooth brush::	clear with green
What's on your desktop::	lets see....hm, pens pencils cup camera phone clock
Do you like roller coasters::	depends
Do you do drugs::	kinda i guess
Are you a virgin::	yeah man
Do you have any pets::	three fish..one died yesterday :-( ha
What time do you go to sleep::	whenever, dont matta

Basic Survey [ 87 questions] brought to you by BZOINK!

lacrossegirl556 @ 2004-01-02T21:29:00

2004-01-03T02:53:48Z

why cant anything be simple anymore, it seems like whatever i do nothing works the way its supposed to, nothing is ever as it seems, simple words poeple say never come out to be true, lately ive been frustrated with everything and im sick of feeling like i cant accomplish things, sick of being intimidated

New Yeahs

2003-12-30T20:38:36Z

01.What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? .

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Not hang aound with poeple that are rude and indecisive, dont need that frustration....and that didnt make sense

03. Did someone close to you give birth?nah

04. Did anyone close to you die? nope

05. What countries did you visit? ha uh canada

06. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? More funn

07. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?10-27, cant say oh and camp

08. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year? ehh there isnt really one taht sticks out

09. What was your biggest failure(s)?not really a big one , but in general i tend to give up on things too easily

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? fractured my arm snowboarding, actually like 2 days ago

11. What was the best thing you bought? ....still waiting to buy it

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Steve Vaughan , Ali and Kelsey coming home!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? no

14. Where did most of your money go? In the mail or from visiting people

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Skiing, hanging out with steve,ali,kelsey,colleen,blahblah..im easily excited

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?:"The World I know" -Collective Soul

17. Compared to this time last year, are you i. happier or sadder? hm probably the same, dont really rmember how i was last year

ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter, but working on taht...

iii. richer or poorer? social status dont matta

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? cant say man

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? eating adn taking things for granite

20. How did you spend Christmas? With family and steve and meredith somehow in the middle of all of that

22. Did you fall in love in 2003? no way

23. How many one-night stands? if you are considering a one night stand nothing but sex then none.

24. What was your favorite TV program? REAL WORLD

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? most definitely

26. What was the best book you read? hate reading, forever

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? oh god , so many ...umm jack johnson, blues traveler, more phish, howie day thanks to mal..idk lots more

28. What did you want and get? To be on the field hockey team, to get in shape for camp, and my Gold Award

29. What did you want and not get? cant think of anything, im pretty content with waht ive got

30. Favorite film of this year? i think i saw all of two movies this year and i wouldtn classify them as favorites, so an old favorite......breakfast club

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Ali,Kelsey came over with the family,...dont really remmeber what we did................why is my memory getting so bad?

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? mo money but other than material goods, more fun and the ability to not parranoy myself about little things

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? nto really sure but im all about the 80s now

34. What kept you sane? ali , ehh sometimes, oh and music

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? didnt pay attention

36. What political issue stirred you the most? never really paid attention

37. Who do you miss? Colleen, and everyone i guess, seperation anxiety occurs frequently in my life

38. Who was the best new person you met? Semi-new, Steve Vaughan

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: ..still thinking about taht one

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: doenst really sum up my year...

Mock the world
Live safe, say why
Don't you know if you live life
Then you become what you are

[just a few pics]

T.A.T.S. yeah just like in math

2003-12-30T04:50:41Z

sometimes blank space can say everything you can't say outloud in the most obscure way you can get from the depths of the nothing in the back of your head

so you find all that avoiding just takes you in circles and you end up right back where you started.